My Life… My Thoughts

It’s 4:45am on a saturday morning, and I can’t go back to bed.  Somehow the cold woke me up from my slumber and made me go to the bathroom.  Suddenly, all the stresses of the previous day caught up on me. 

I have this feeling that my being nice and obedient has caused me to be abused.  Is it also because I am too docile?  Do I need to more assertive?  How do I become assertive without coming out as a rebel?  Better yet, how do I get assertive without getting myself fired?

I am almost at my 2nd year working with my present company and not once did I complain from all the stresses I get from this job.  And heck, it is not even a thinking job.  It is a very menial one that even a high school graduate can do. No pun intended.

But it pays the bills.  That’s the main reason why I try as much as possible to swallow my pride and put up with all the crap I’m getting.  The irony of it all is that I racked up a lot of bills all because I wanted to make myself comfortable.  Somehow shopping and having nice things have become a catharsis to all the stresses I get from work.  A vicious cycle, it is. 

Oh, it’s almost 5 am and I’m getting hungry.  Now I have a choice between going back to bed and eating.  I choose to sleep.  Getting fat is another predicament I don’t want to be in. 

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