My Life… My Thoughts

He calls me beautiful.  I know it must be music to my ears but for some reason it makes me cringe.  Too romantic. Too unbelievable. Too good to be true. He treats me nicely and gave me a beautiful rose the first time we met.  I always tell him to stop flattering me and get real.  He told me that this is who he is and if he was nice to me, I better get used to it.  I am not used to it.  All the guys I dated are the opposite of him.  I must be a masochist because I always go for the "bad guys."  What’s wrong with me?

Now he is gone.  I must’ve hurt his feelings.  This was what he said: " I am a good man, babe. Don’t break my heart."  And I did.

Most of the workers in the factory where I work are non-english speakers. Out of habit, they usually play pranks on each other.  I was in the production area one time when I noticed an 8"x11" paper with a monkey’s face and some words written on it.  I moved closer to read what was written.  The writings went:  "Se Rebusca (monkey’s picture) Roberto…..Recompensa 1,000 penis." 

It was supposed to say: "Wanted Roberto….Reward 1,000 pennies. " Whew!  What a difference a misspelled word can make.

I turn 30 today.  When I was younger, the thought of 30 is old.  My mexican co-worker asked me how old I was and when I told him my real age, he was a little surprised.  He said I look 22.  I was flattered.  It is my first birthday here and my boss told me that I am allowed one paid birthday leave.  Since I showed up for work today, I already forfeited it.  But then he promised to pay me one extra day instead.  Cool.  I needed more cash.

But the real reason why I didn’t want to take a leave was because I really have nowhere to go and no one to  be with.  I am normally an active person and I’m afraid that if I would just stay home and bum around, I might end up wallowing in my loneliness.  What a life!  I miss home.  I miss my family. I miss my friends.

But then again, this was the choice I made—one I have to live with.   I could get fired for blogging during office hours but everyone was so easy on me considering that it’s my birthday.  I could only be thankful for all those people who made this day special.  But most of all, I have to thank HIM for granting me another year to enjoy his creation.