AUTUMN IN LA…..AUTUMN IN MY LIFE
I came here at Spring time. The first time I set foot in this country, everything looked so bright and beautiful. Flowers were in bloom and the sun was ever so bright. I was happy, excited, anxious about everything that lay ahead. I was excited to live my dream. There was never a down time for me. It seems like everywhere I go, there was always something new, something exciting, something different. I wanted to try and experience all sorts of things….wanted to live my life to the fullest. Like the flowers that were starting to bloom, I started to spread my wings by meeting people, establishing my career, starting new things.
Then came summer. The best season of all. The days were longer, the sun was brighter and the mood was happier. Summer is my season. Like its blazing heat searching for areas to penetrate, I am ever so curious…always in search for something, always on the lookout for that elusive place, that elusive dream. It was in summer when I thought I’ve found that dream. But little did I know that dreams are always elusive. That is why they are called as such—you can never live them.
With the changing season, I am currently feeling that the dream I thought I lived when I came here was never mine. There will always be that something, some dream, and it will always evade me. This, I should understand and start to accept. I should be happy and content with what I have now, and count my blessings. Winter is yet to come and if I don’t wage war with the negative emotions in my life, I would never be happy. I choose to be happy.
Nevertheless, I’ll continue to chase after that dream no matter how elusive it may be.
November 16th, 2005 at 11:12 pm
Standing for what you believe in
regardless of the odds against you,
and the pressure that tears at your resistance
…is Courage.
Keeping a smile on your face when inside you feel like dying,
for the sake of supporting others
…is Strength.
Stopping at nothing and doing
what’s in your heart that you know is right
…is Determination.
Doing more than is expected,
to make another’s life a little more bearable,
without uttering a single complaint
…is Compassion.
Helping a friend in need, no matter the time or effort,
to the best of your ability
…is Loyalty.
Holding your head high
And being the best you know you can be when life
seems to fall apart at your feet,
…is Fortitude.
Facing each difficulty with thoughts that
time will bring you better tomorrows,
And never giving up…
…is Confidence.
I really enjoyed reading your blogs.
It seems you have all of the above qualities.That’s why,
I really believe In You Cousin, Just…..
Hold Your Head up High And Make Your Life Better Every Day like you always do!:-)